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Name: Hans Von
Birthday: 10/8/1986
Gender: Male
Interests: God of course, playing my guitar, painting/drawing, cars, swimming, bodyboarding, fishing anything related to water, girls in bikinis, fish, my pet turtle leo, dogs(gotto love my doggy prince hes the cutest), i like alotta stuff...(edit: 2008 - still God, family, really good friends, watchin movies, eating)
Expertise: dare i say Halo??? LOL well many of youll would most likely argue that haha (edit 2008... starcraft!)
Occupation: Quest to be a nurse
Industry: Nonprofit
Message: message meEmail: email me
AIM:  HANSom_Flip
Yahoo:  hansdorion
Member Since:
12/19/2004
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| Been awhile since i last wrote on here. A lot of things have happend, major milestones, new victory instead of defeats like those last year. For once in a long time I'm starting to be proud of what I've accomplished and that amidst the ashes came a silent phoenix. It wasnt easy, but thanks to God, good friends, true friends, and the roots that i draw my inspiration and stregth from, I'm slowly but surely one step closer to the end. Tommorow is the start of a new era, a new day...a test day. Im a little anxious becuase this one marks the first of many, the first step into a new phase of my life. I dont know why i'm afraid, ive been preparing, God is with me as he has always been.
Dear Lord, im sorry i missed church today, but I ask that you be with me tommorrow as always, give me the strength and the courage I need.
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| Its my last week of clinicals this week. I cant believe that this semesters almost over. It went by so fast. Alot has happened to me during this fall and i lost people i loved. There were some i pushed away. I wish that I could have shown the people who loved me more love when i could... because i miss them and i think about them all the time. And theres nothing i can really do anymore to tell them and show them how i feel. From these mistakes i hope that i learn. I hope that i learn to appreciate what i have when i have them... instead of regretting the things i didnt say and the things i didn't do. Because in the end all that matters is what we did... | | |
| Cant seem to sleep. Schools been ok so far thats definately not whats keeping me up, i pretty much moved on with that apsect of my life. I think im back on track to where i want to be despite some hard circumstances. But my feelings are still on the down side. I thought id be ok by now and sometimes i feel like i am ok, but i see people her. At night i see their face and sometimes i cant sleep cus when im down i just cant. I think of how things used to be, things i should have done, things i should have said and appreciated them when they were around me. I wish i was a better person then.
My closest and my favorite uncle passed away this weekend... That adds to this burden that i feel. I hung out with a couple of friends earlier and it made me feel better about things, to relax and laugh but then i was fixing my moms camera for her trip back to the philippines tommorrow for my uncles funeral and i saw some old pictures of people that i miss.... When will this all end? soon i hope. Lord please help me and my family get through this troubled time, you are my hope and i need you now
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| Had the easiest week of clinicals this week, i got out early cus the state was in the hospital so whoppee. Today the instructor asked me in front of everyone where i came from and for the first time i finally revealed to them where im from. It definately wasnt easy talking about it, of course they dont fully know the whole story. I didnt get to take care of my patient whose a priest this week. I feel bad for him hes bed ridden and very weak and depressed. He cant talk and i could tell that he was miserable but yesterday when i peeked in to say hello he actually was alert and seemed like he wanted to say hi and he tried to shake my hand. I pray for him, and i cleaned him up and put him in a wheelchair and rolled him to mass. I could tell and i believe that being part of worship and praise would do him good. And i think it did, he was actually conscious enough to make the sign of the cross even in his weakened state and this week...he was a lot stronger. This whole experience and this patient makes me realize why im doing this.... To be part of Gods kindness and to help people who are forgotten. This former priest was neglected and it just makes me realize how ugly this world can be...
Ive been doing some thinking about my own problems and how compared to many dont seem to be that big of a deal anymore. I realize more and more the roller coaster that is life. We go up and down but everything is always temporary. Whether it be our youth, the excitements, happiness, and depression we feel... Its all temporary... And yes i felt depressed but i see now and i look forward to when im happy again. Because i owe it to so many people and to myself to enjoy this gift from God that we call life..
Thank you God for my life. and for my family and friends who make it all worth while. Amen
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| I turned 22 this week. I gotta say it wasnt exactly my most fun birthday. I didnt really do much, but i just thank God for another year. I also like to thank God for my parents and those friends whove supported me through these past couple of months. I have to say i'm still feeling sad, not only because of school, but also because i think i still really miss her. There are times when the little things remind me of how things used to be. I like to believe that God does things for a reason and that if things are really meant to be then these things will work out. My good friends tell me that patience is a virtue that im going to need. I dont think anyone really knows exactly how i feel, except the good lord and i need him. Im lucky to have the things i have now, but i cant help but feel a bit mellow. Hopefully time will heal these wounds i have.
It is in times like these that we realize what we are made of and who our friends really are
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